Coursework so far :D

So we have been given a summer prpject before we start to get us used to the work load its to break us in slowly! So I got a great start on that yesterday i got my rough copy all written up in a few hours yesterday. I then moved on to using microsoft power point and began typing away and I really extended my answers and because I don;t know if the college wants a paper copy as in writen or a typed copy so ive done bth I'm part way though my neat written copy now and I feel like I'm doing well.
I'm feeling really possitive about this right now :D
Currently I am taking a break from all the work and just kicking back for an hour watching real housewives of orange county and cooking dinner FRIED CHICKEN NOM!
I wanna start my diet tomorrow cause I'm still worried about taking my tunic off and being judged for my weight because I know I'm bigger than the other girls in the class so if i lose weight and tone up I'll be fine and confident :)
Luckily my nan is going to buy my shoes because there is a specific type of shoe that you need for the course which I don't quite understand :/ I suppose is because holistic therapy is a type of relaxtion and clonking shoes arent good :/
well I've cut my nails down as the course said to
BUT I have to retake math with in the college I have to retake math english and IT even though I got  a B in english I still have to do a retake! thats wound me up a little.
update later <3

Brilliant day!

So today I had my college interview and it went really well I'm so looking forward to doing the course now! Even if they have given me homework already!
All thats left to do now id enroll and complete my induction day :)
I'm so happy cause it means I can stick my fingers up at the sixth form and tell them all bollocks cause I'm actually going to get some where now I'm getting there getting closer and closer to my salon! :D
I'm starting to diet tomorrow because of waxing and stuff I'm going to have to be willing to whip my kit off at any given moment so I'm going to start excersizing and eating well so its not totally humiliating!
I can't get over how excitied I am :D
I nearly cried telling my mum she is so proud and so is my dad all thats left for me to do now is write up the neat of my summer project and I'm all sorted I cant wait to get my hands on the kit and really get the hang of things
Arrrrgh! Tooo excited :D
Seriously you can not understand the happiness I'm feeling right now it's unreal I've never felt better :D

Yeah my diet has gone bad even after i over ate at dinner i then had chicken wings and chips with a can of pepsi then had a can of pepsi at breakfast and a fried egg and sausage sandwich for lunch a chocolate spread sandwich and lasagne and garlic bread :/ ive only drunk water though and taken the dog out twice! I pray for the strength to do better tomorrow!

ruined my diet all ready :( I over ate at dinner

Hurry up dinner! I'm starving!

Wooo!

I started my diet today and so far so good :) so far today i have eaten...

• one bowl of honey nut cornflakes with semi skimmed milk and a teaspoon of sugar
• one special K red berry cereal bar
• one tin of plum tomato basil and creme fraiche soup with 2 slices of bread and a thin scrapping of butter
• 1 pack mars planets

and all I've drunk is water and a little milk
and
for dinner i have got baked potatoes!
I've done a fair bit of walking today so thats burned a little I hope :) lets hope tomorrow is just as successful :D
I'm so proud of my self!

I will start my diet!.... Tomorrow!

I'm due to be a bridesmaid next year and I really wanna look good I don't want people to whisper things like "have you seen the fat one?" I really want people to say "you look lovely" I will lose wight I will start excersizing I will slim down
Because I've noticed that I've got bigger all I do is eat and moan thats it so I'm gonna start taking the dog for walks LOOOOONG walks im gonna do sit ups to tone up and eat properly to shed pounds.
I just wanna look good!

this pretty much applies to me I believe that to be thin is to be successful but I can't get thin I don't wanna be anorexic looking but just a flat tummy and hips is not a bad thing I dont think I'm attractive I hate my self I'm too flabby too wobbly well thats my view and it's easier said than done when people say learn to love your self believe me i have tried to love my self when i was doing dance i lost loads of weight left school and gained it all and more i hate my self for it i eat then feel guilty for it i tried to lose the weight ive tried starving purging dieting excersizing and it doesnt seem to work I cant sleep at night with out thinking about starving my self its stupid i feel stupid but i cant help it :(