12th may 2010

not an awful lot has happened since i last updated except i cooked all most threw uncooked chicken across the kitchen got cheese sauce on the back door turned my fridge in to dave (ill post a pic later) and had an argument with my dad all good times
I dont really remember much from today i got up some where around eleven and went down tescos after bugging my mum for a bit I've felt like crap all day to be honest cause i had a late night/ early morning
I had something to eat chicken and mushroom pie FTW and a frijj banana milkshake BANG  goes the diet lol while i was down tescos i saw one of the old "it" girls with a pram with a new born in it im not sure if its hers or her mums cause i havent seen her in months and i know her mum was pregnant
I found out one of the girls from my class is pregnant everyone is getting pregnant! I would like kids but not now cause i know i wouldnt cope with them so im gonna wait until i know i can raise them and support them :) *sensible shannen*
had a row with my dad over the washing up cause Tuesday i cleaned the entire house top to bottom polished hoovered sprayed scrubbed washed everything and then wednesday i done the washing up and cooked dinner now hes wanting me to do the washing up again!
Hes told me that im going out job hunting next week jokes on you big man I've got no cvs left HA!
I'm just sick of him always trying to tell me what to do i wann know how long this is gonna carry on for am i gonna get a phone call when i 30 asking if im doing the washing up?? it just pisses me off im out of school with depression ffs! that generally means i cant get a fucking job you knob head!!!
I cant wait for tomorrow I really fucking can't Karleighs parents are away for the weekend and im at hers till sunday night when we are both down mine it gets me away fron here it gets me away from dick face and i cant fucking wait!!! tomorrow needs to hurry up and get here!
update later
<3

25th may 2011

GREEEEAAAAT
karleighs got the fucking ump with me cause I went to sort my nan out and left her at home its not my fault they cant stand each other and cant be in the same room!!!!!
I only waited for sme girl to turn up so I could knock her teeth out for messing my nan around and now im in the wrong??
fgs! I'm having a fat day so thats got me down im all jiggly and bloated and ugly :/
FML!!!
ugh i don't even know what to put today my spelling is erratic and my mind is so fucking clouded
FML FML FML!!!
update later
<3

24th May 2011

so I had my blood test today and I was filled with sheer horror at the thought of them taking blood from me via needle i hate needles as she brought it towards me I grabbed karleighs hand screwed my face up and sat there virtually crying "no no no no no no no" I hated every second but afterwards I was fine again like nothing had happened I saw my aunt lesely afterwards she works at the hospital.
I'm wanting to order a new ds game off of ebay cause its like my fave game and it got lost in the last move and i was gutted! its animal crossing wildworld :) I'm a big kid but that game is addictive at the moment I'm playing cats like a grown up :)
I completely emptied the washing basket today got it all dry! I'm so prouds and I was still made to do the school run! arseholes!
I'm so fucking hungry but my mum is out and me and dad are waiting for her to get back other wise she will just kick off the stupid bitch! we had a laugh last night but that also lead to me and karleigh only getting four hours sleep cause we were all awake and watching music videos :/ not that exciting I did catapult the cat across the room he was sleeping on my legs and I sneezed and my legs spazzed and shot him in the air :)


I WATCHED GAGAS MONSTER TOUR :D love that woman shes amazing live she just put so much passion and love in to that performance she even cried a few times her self bless her aaannnnd I cleaned my gaga earphones today my lovely monster heartbeats earphones! :D hehe I love gaga I have a gaga purse but I need a new one cause the one I've got is broken :(

sooooo bored of simpsons!!
I'm gonna watch white chicks later when I get in to bed
NOW OFF TO TUMBL!!!
update later
<3

23rd May 2011

Euch! still feeling shitty I had to run up to meet my sister from school shes been getting hassle again the two little shits keep starting on her and then say that they are her best friends pkay my sister is irritating and I hate her a lot of the time but no one is allowed to pick on her but me!! and some times Kane!! but only if I let him :) she had her final HPV jab today and I didnt know and I grabbed her arm :/ eep.
I looked up a BTEC make up artistry course cause I am genuinely interested its been my dream for ages to be a make up artist for run way shows cover shoots the lot I wanted to be a model but after I scarred my self that was out of the question so I moved on to make up but this BTEC course will cost £619 for the course and books and then a further £52.30 for each exam and there are four of them! I know my mum said that she would pay for anything educational but thats a piss take.
I might report a family in my street to social services all day they have been sitting on their door step drinking and getting high their kids are running around in nappies and dirty t-shirts so close to the road the parents hit them and swear at them and always have different people in and out at all hours I only know this because my bedroom is down stairs at the front.
the neighbours are just fucking noisy pricks and all they play all day is nicole scherzinger (SLAG) bruno mars (DRUGGIE) and Adele (just plain boring)
right well I've got to get the washing in and clean the kitchen
update later
<3

23rd May 2011

hehe long time since I've updated :)
well I went to the doctors and now have to go for blood tests tomorrow but I hate needles they want to test me for anemia which is where the body doesnt have enough red blood cells this can be dangerous because reb blood cells supply oxygen to body tissues so fingers crossed I get the all clear on that one the second blood test is for thyroid glads which are in your neck they release the hormone that helps control the metabolism I don't under stand what could be wrong with them :/
I start psychotherapy on thursday at 9:30 in the morning so karleigh is staying round on wednesday to take the little one to school I'm actually quite worried about it to be honest because I've never been to the place where I have to go for it I don't know the person I don't know what to talk about.
Me and Karleigh went on an expodition the other day lmao we went down this road we had never been down and ended up some where we didnt know carried on walking until we ended up outside canada house a place I know all too well!
hmmm I better go and find the washing basket so I can put the washing out on the line :)
update later
<3

3rd May 2011 23:14

such a looooooooooooooong boring evening!
been a bit of drama though so i guess that was kinda exciting :/
been texting my wonderful hubby (lol) most of the evening to see what hes been up to i learned that he will save me from spiders and he can lay flooring too :) he has his uses
off to nannys tomorrow i need to ring her in the morning when i get up to let her know im on my way :) dont want to scare her she calls me mortitia as it is -___- she wont drop the goth period
my back hurts for some strange reason
and i cant help but notice that this post is just rambling on and on
well i gave out relationship advice :D some friend of mine likes a girl and doesnt know how to tell her
confronted an arse hole this is why i hate face book random arse holes add me chat me up then turn in to dicks i never fall for sweet chat up lines unless i know they are genuine so this muppet shit out really
helped a friend give out medical advice woo i can stem bleeding! *feels epic*
and i noticed that my fringe is actually wonky and now im racking my brains trying to find away to sort it with out resorting to cutting it :/

im actually quite excited about seeing my nanny tomorrow i lubbs her :D

my obsessive ex wont leave me alone

annnnnd

warren made me smile like an idiot with his random kiss and the whole wifey situation lol :D thanks warren you have cheered me up a lot today <3

its a good end to an average day :)

3rd May 2011 17:33pm

right school run has been done my fave glass has been broken and now im in a fantastic mood -___- I'm the only one who ever disciplines my little sister yes she is autistic but thats no reason to be a spoilt brat and my mum and dad let her get away with it! I'm the one who gets in trouble!
the living room is now nice and tidy but my parents will probably come in and moan that i haven't done the kitchen but at least i done the living room and plus i spend most of my time out the kitchen cleaning it and it never seems to change!
I did eventually get some sleep this morning from about 6.10 to about 11.20 i was asleep im still a bit tired but ive lasted longer than this with no sleep at all so ill cope :)
ugh my room needs tidying again and ive got to get the washing in in a bit :/ such an exciting life i lead :/
at the moment im texting warren (hubby :P)  watching judge judy (-_-) and throwing a diva fit (:D)

I dunno im quite content at the moment thinking of what im doing my self for dinner and thinking of booking the bathroom yes you have to book our bathroom or there are some big arguments between me and my parents and considering i take an hour or more in the bath its just logic

mmmm now i dont know what to put so ill update later <3

3rd May 2011 05:52am

mmm ten to six in the morning and i still havent slept last night was a bit bumpy i had a row with my best boy mate and we both got really worked up and for some reason i was really emotional i was just slobbing all night doing nothing but blogging! now im just waiting for a text from karleigh but she doesnt get up until half eight so ive got a little while to wait yet i might have sent her all my feelings by text at twenty to four this morning (y) so ya know im gonna get a few texts.
just waiting for my sister to get up in ten minutes then my dad my other sister then my mum so i can sit in here pretending to sleep and blissfully ignoring them until they go to work/school/to do the school run then i might emerge from my pit wait for karleigh have a bit of breakfast then chill and hope for the best for the rest of the day :)
up date later ;)

2nd of may 2011

so today i get up early after spending most of the night designing tattoos for my brother and his clients and some for myself with friends. I get up early I get ready I walk to the other side of chatham with karleigh I get to my brothers and hes just sitting around doing nothing even though he promised by the time i got there his tattoo gear would be set up so he could get an early start on touching up the couloring on my fiction tattoo. This never happened
He goes to his mates instead leaving me Warren and Karleigh sitting in the front room with the dog waiting for hours for him to come back these hours where spent sitting out the garden picking white dog fur off of warrens black jacket playing with air soft guns hooting at nothing with nothing no pelets absolutely nout, watching the dog tangle its self in her lead (the walls in the garden are incredibly low and we didnt want her to escape but dont panic she was fine she had plenty of room to get around and play)
first my brothers girlfriend comes in alone and has a bitch saying my brother had taken her rizzla papers leaving her with just the tobacco so she couldnt smoke anything
kane eventually struts in at this point im fuming because im still waiting for my tattoo to be touched up he starts an argument with his fiancee and calls her a lazy cunt she throws a strop he throws the laptop she throws the vrgin box and me karleigh and warren make a quick escape WITH MY TATTOO STILL UNTOUCHED
now im faced with a long walk home alone in the cold -___- knowing that when i got in I had to cook for my self and then entertain my self
eventually I had fish burgers :)
I spent the rest of the evening sitting in my room as iam now tumblin' texting warren and setting this up and I feel fantastic -____-